Heart and Soul

Right now I'm having a conflict between my heart and my mind, I want to come home I miss everyone and its hard being away and missing so much it has been over five months now that I've been gone. On the other hand I know intellectually or as people around here would say in my soul that I need to stay in Israel for a while longer. I still have much I want to learn and questions I want to answer and things I want to accomplish and I also know that if I were to come back now, I would end up coming back to Israel which I don't want to do. I want to come back and be back completely and not still in Israel in my head. And thats just the reality I'm living for now. Eretz Israel.