Is it (almost) March already??

Its been a while since my last post, I try not to let that happen but there are times here that I don't have that much to say, whenever I sit down to write nothing comes out. It’s strange and I suppose I could always just post up some links or random thoughts about whatever. But at least for now that's not what I want this blog to be about. I knew when I decided to come to Israel that it wouldn't always be an easy experience and lately its been very up and down day in and day out I don't know what to expect. Some mornings I wake up ready to go to class to learn, and within ten minutes I'm hating class, wondering what the hell I'm doing in Israel and just wishing I was home. Other days I wake up angry and ready to go home, only to become deeply engaged in a topic, and in those moments I remember why I'm here and what I'm doing. And that’s just how it is. Life no matter where you are is just up and down at times. But I feel like being in a foreign land, far removed from the comfort and safety of home can exaggerate it. Anyway I've really been trying to sort out where I stand on a lot of core issues and what in turn that means for how I live my life. Questions like am I going to keep Shabbat and kosher when I go home. And I realize I won't really know until I get home. This is a scary proposition. But I'm getting there slowly but surely I'm figuring out what my place is in the world is. I can't say that I'm always 100% happy or even that I wouldn't have been happier just staying home and not going on this crazy adventure but I do know that if I hadn’t decided to do this I could have woken up ten or twenty years from now without any of these questions resolved and with none of the time I have now to resolve them. So I try to count my blessings each and everyday and appreciate the beauty to gods grand design even if I can’t always understand it. Shalom and Eretz Israel.